Courtney

I am officially an AUNTIE now!!

My sister is pregnant, that's right.  I am sooo excited.  I am a little sad that I am so far away but I knew that this would happen so it's okay.  I am just going to be sending presents all of the time and spoiling the baby so that he/she (I am dying to know already) will know who I am even though we are so far away.  Anyway, Krysten is due in July so be on the lookout for her growing belly.  And you know her, she is going to rock this pregnancy and be dressing all cute and looking gorgeous.  Brat.  Anyway, Krysten and Jonathan are going to be the best parents and I couldn't be happier!  Check out this message that Brook and Zach made for them...(I love what Zach says).

Thank God I am not Martha Stewart

So every year I never seem to get my Christmas decorations the way that I want them.  I cannot achieve the perfect vision that I have in my head.  I was disturbed about this the other day.  Then when I was cleaning yesterday I am going through the house noticing most of my decorations are things that my kids spent time on at their little desks, made with their own little hands and proudly presented to me.  I LOVE paper plate wreaths and white paper cut out snowflakes.  That stuff is the best.  Then it hit me, I am so glad that I am not Martha Stewart.  Thank you Lord.

It's a Rruuff day

Let me start off by saying that it is snowing and my furnace broke and will not be fixed until tonight so it is 18 degrees, might be a contributing factor to the way that I am feeling. 

Anyhow, I have this quagmire where I am happy with my life, with my family, very happy actually.  And then, I can't get over all of my friends and my family friend types like my sister and my cousins being 1800 miles away from me.  I have made a couple good friends out here.  But I moved away from the most awesome women (some of you read this and you are definitely included in this group) and it changed my life.  I'm struggling with some things right now and feel so far away from my support. 

I have lost my fire.  I guess I should have seen it coming.  I love my church and just can't seem to connect with any of the women there, I know there have got to be some that I can I guess I just have to put myself out there more.  I am surprised at how much stronger my walk can be with all of you behind me and hanging out with me, etc.  Keep me accountable, ask me if I tried to hook up with some small group or something because I have got to make some changes here.

This is getting so sappy but I might feel better once I get it out there in the world rather than in my head (which can sometimes be a dark and twisty place : )).  So to the many awesome ladies out there that I have been blessed to call friends, know that I love and miss you and appreciate you and that if I don't call or even leave a comment on your blog I am here but there is not more than a couple seconds that go by in my day where I am not completely interrupted and redirected.  Mamas you feel me.